LOVE....is wonderful......

hee hee..it's me...hee hee...i'm giving a sheepish grin cos cos cos...i feel so *guiLtY*...cos i haven been reading blogs and writing blogs for like the longest longest time......n everytime lydia makes a comment..'ya lah u alwasy never read blog' or like ' har u read the blog?'.....i feeel extremely extremely guilty..... :( :( :(.....hee ..cos actually to me a blog is not just a blog...but it is a good way to find out how others on the blog have been doing and so on.....but well...i just haven been making enough effort to blog and only occassionally do i read it....but lydia, its good la..it's kinda a wake up call for me.......well...anyways just some sharing...

over this weekend, i feel that the Lord is trying to tell me "hey child, there's more to life than work"...this may sound a lil cliche...hee....but well, it seems like this msg to coming thru to me very strongly.....

anyways, like what i've shared with some of u, these 2 weeks have been a terrrible week for me...everyday, i'm just working and working...just to meet the demands of my ahem....super high expectations manager....so because of that, i feel tt i've been very in my own world these past 2 weeks.....no time to catch up with frens and all....and i really do feel very bad when i think about it on hindsight.......for eg., although i know esther is going thru a tough time, i didnt even drop her a single sms this week....and when helena told us yest that she was hospitalised this week...my heart really sank......cos while my dearest sister is going thru a hard time, i was working my heart and mind away......and I begin to question if I'm putting too much just TOO MUCH emphasis on just work that I've been kinda neglecting the pple whom i love ard me? Well, my sister's exams started last week and will stretch thru this coming week...and because ive been going home late due to work, i haven had the time to really sit down and help her with her work...and what makes me even more guilty is that yest i actually went out with frens in the late morn to early afternoon..and when i was home, she was sleeping and then my aunt brought her out for dinner at about 6...so yest, i didnt get to help her with her work too.....

and to make things worse, after i came back from church just now, i found out that she hasnt really started on her revision for tom's e-maths paper and I lost it......I really lost my temper and scolded her upside down....and now I really feel so heartbroken....I really didnt mean to lose my temper like that...but i just couldn't withold it! Maybe it's because i feel so helpless now that her paper is tom and i cant do much, so i simply vented this helplessness on her..... and as i reflected on what happened just now, tots began to flow and i began to ponder upon how much time, not just in terms of quantity but quality have i been spending with my family and my dear frens? it seems that 85% is on work and maybe 10% with God n my self...and a pathetic 5% on my family and frens.....and i feel truly truly lousy about it.......how should I manage my time better to reallocate this percentage more evenly??

sometimes in our midst of busyness, we should always always stop in our tracks and reflect upon what we have been doing with most of our time...Is our 'allocation' of time somewhat parallel with our priorities in life? Nothing in this world can beat LOVE...the love between amongst your family..the love amongst your frens..the love amongest us.. brothers and sisters serving together in the Lord...treasure your time with each and every 1 of your loved ones.....