GOD IS GOOD (ALL THE TIME!!!)

I am finally blogging!!!!!!
(thanks to Lydia's help esp with the username haha ok ok hush hush)

I have so so so much to say! first of all MY EXAMS are OVER! the past 2 weeks were the most stressful days i ever had. i have never slept so little! (my eye bags can testify man!) I have never screamed into my pillow so many times and i have never broke down so many times too. Many many times i wanted to give up. just take an MC and go for the sup paper, but that's cheating! I thank God for giving me strength and wisdom. and i definelty wont be able to do it without all the prayer and support everyone has shown me. (sorry caleb that i was nt able to go for ur "farewell").
Thru this exam period i have learnt to TRUST GOD. well his ways are way beyond our understanding, no man can ever comprehend. As i was sitting for one of my papers, i kept talking to God "wah how man God, i cannt even do 3 out of the 4 questions, how? seriously tell me how?" then instantly the word "TRUST" was flashing in front of me. i then laid my head on the table and teared cause i didnt know how to trust God, i wasn't able to cause it really seemed impossible. i just said a short prayer then continued doing the paper. i still dont know how i fared for the paper but I got to trust God.

okay on a lighter note (hope i did bored you! sorry)
I AM IN ESSR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God has his timing for everything :) ( God has made everything beautiful in its time. Ecc 3:11)
i got so much to learn from each and everyone of you! May God use me to bless and build his little temples! :)

i am really glad that matthew has started attending SR! And to hear him sing the songs that has been lead during SR is amazing! it has always been my desire to hear my dad say "As for me and my house we re gonna serve the LORD!" My family, we used to attend fcbc when i was a LITTLE temple,only till my parents stopped attending. they have nt been attending church since i was pri5. well i dont know if they have backslided cause i know they still have God is their hearts. It has always been and will always be my desire to see my family serving God.

oh no i think i am have blogged too much, hee sorry my fist blog entry too excited!
okie take care everyone! Yan quan's debut on sunday!!! (whoo hoo! would be keeping ya in my prayers!)

GOtcha! ok off to mugging now....  

Oh this is a funny pic! lOOK AT TIMOTHY! super amused by the 'pilgrim' in the foreground.... 

"wert?" 

Little IMP!!!! But quite a shuai/seh pose siah... a valuable picture of him without a cheeky grin on his face...  

AHHHHH!!!! bui tahan!! the cheeks so pinchable... 

Gong xi gong xi... 

Oie why you kick my Bottle??? 

Faith... growing up real quick... 

Easter SUnday with the little kids... =) 

SOlid ROCK~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~! Eh where's nana and Asta?? they left early.... I'll see if i can superimpose them into this pic someday..when my exams are over. HAHa... 

Yanquan practicing juggling with his mouth becuz his knee is busted....  

Frances crying because the food was simply tooo ..... HOT. 

Steamboat... SIO AH Sio AH!!!! 

And Then I Lifted My hands...because OUR GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD!!!

Hey people!! I'm in mugging furore now but since i can spend time going out to eat with my parents going out to eat with my friends going down to church to chup in the practice i'm sure i could leave an entry!!! I seriously am lagging behind in revision because i've been giving alot of time to other things and hoping God will provide. Haha.. BUt i still have to put in my part of the effort eh? SO do keep me in ya prayers ok? Oh and Helena too!!! After having that fabulous steamboat with us that night... she still had a test the next day and well Hahahahaha... SHe "FEi-lou-ed" the test! SO! FROM NOW! NO more gatherings until everyone finishes all the tests and exams! (ALthough i think this is a vicious cycle... we finish already then somebody else will start... siannnnnnn) SO also keep helena and her tests in your prayers!!

Today i wanna blog about SUnday Worship in Main Service! Maybe helena should blog about it too ... haha. Well, its been a while since i last went to main service eh.. and the last time i was there ... I was suppressing the urge to jump so much i think if anyone came along with a pin and poked me arse i would have exploded!

So today, i went and i told myself, "I'm gonna praise him today with every part of my body man..." But well, i was also worried for nana cuz she looked super stressed out. Our dearest nana... being full of faith and passion had chosen a whole range of HILLSONG songs! (WOOOOhooooo~~!!) but the music team was pretty stressed up and practice on saturday ended with helena feeling that she needed GOd more than ever (hha issit?)

What i'm trying to say is.. it think there must have been a purpose for everything. I can't put it all down here in words... maybe we could talk about it in our next gathering( when...?) But i guess, if i hadn't witnessed the practice and sensed the stress helena was going under... i might not have the courage to step out today and just praise him with all he had given me. I would still be confined to that space behind my seat, clapping my hands. Suppressing the joy and the need to just jump it all off with all passion. I guess, other than that passion, that joy, the catalyst reason that made me do what i did, was the fact that i wanted to give helena the support she needed. ANd so! I stepped out of my seat and joined ENG KWANG at the "forbidden area" in the front and started praising him like the way i wanted to. THe way we used to as kids... the way yanquan, I, Joel used to just give our all.

I can remember to clearly, it was... the millenium year. At the mother church in marine parade... and all the churches had come together. Eng Kwang was the worship leader that night. To show our support, we jumped like never before to songs like "all things are possible". If anyone had looked at us that night, they would have asked "which church are these vibrant youths from?". Really, those were the days. ANd never once have i forgotten events like this. THey remind me about what i can do, and hence i constantly ask myself why i'm not doing it now. Issit because of peer pressure?

I remember Aunty HOlan once said during Sunday school(when i was still a solid rocker. oh but we weren't solid rockers. we were just called children. haha) She said "be God-concious, not man-concious". This sentence has been imprinted in my heart ever since but as i grew up and grappled with issues that bogged me down in life... i realise its getting harder and harder to be "god-concious" and not "man-concious".

But what i did today has re-ignited that fire in me. Jumping may seem cliche... some people think jumping is only for BIBLE CAMPS, some people think you're just jumping for the sake of jumping. But jumping is a simple way of expressing the joy that's in your heart and the thanks you want to give to him. Jumping in front of the kids seem different from jumping with the adults, because you haven't tried. But the moment you jump. You'll realise. ITs the same.

From the mouths of babies comes ordained praise... If you come to him child like and jumping like nobody's business... then i suppose... That's ordained praise. SO i THank GOd for re-igniting the fire in me by giving me so many reasons to jump for the LOrd today! THank you GOD for HElena!!

Let's jump the good jump! WIll you JUMP wiTH MEEEE~~~!???